| hey everyone. . . whats been up? a lot has been up in my life lets see - my great aunt died, my uncle died, and i found out that my mom is a lesbo and has been living in canada sence i have been up at school. umm yeah oh i had a few more seziures which suck cause now i can't drive again, blah. but other than that life has been pretty upbeat and exciting. lol so yeah leave me some commnets.
~Jess~
oh and ps - kyle ur site is kinda messed up and i can't really see anything |
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| hey all. . . so i thought i would get back up on here and start writing up on here again. . . if anyone out there still reads this just let me know. . . so yeah |
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| wow, it just hit me that i really only come on here go get my stress out when things rn't goin good. lol so anyways here it goes. . . . . just about two weeks ago my boyfriend (ex) cheated on my then he broke up with me.. . . . . that sounds bad i know. he broke up with me because he didn't want to hurt me anymore. he knows he has trouble with cheatin, even when it is someone whom he wants to be with forever. so he said that i needed better than him, and he told me to go off and find someone better, and that it was over. this broke my heart deeply . . . .see i love this man deeply, so deeply i would give my life for him. i would leave my family, friends, and anyone else just to be with him. if he asked me to marry him today i would, gladly. everyone is tellin me that i need to move on, that i can do better. what if i don't want to do better? ? ? i LOVE this man with all of my heart, and that won't change. that wouldn't be fair to anyone else that i could be goin out with because my heart will always be somewhere else. people say i will grow out of it with time. no i won't. i have loved before, this love is nothing like what that was. this love is true, i know this as a fact! i want to spend the rest of my life with him. i don't cry over things, u know this if u know me. i am crying like there is no tomorrow as i am writing this now. i cannot put into words how i feel about this man. i just hope that one day he will stumble apon this and read it and know that i don't hate him for what he has done to me, i am a strong girl, i can take it. but i wish that he notices what he has done to his future. i think i have writen enough, so yeah does anyone have any thoughts about this? what can i do to help my heart from hurting? |
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| monday night i had yet another sezier, it was the worest one i have ever had. almost didn't make it through, but seeing how i was almost a goner they got me in with a doctor for tomorrow. its sad how it takes something so life threating to get peoples attention. so ya. thats about all for right now. |
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| hey all, its been a while i know. been busy. single again, the story of my life . . . . ya i am home sick today, my mom says that there is a large chance that i am hypoqlycemic and thats why i am sick cause i didn't have enough sugar yesterday or somethign like that so ya i don't have to work untill friday !!! excited i know. i get to see the fam. on sunday !! even more excitent ! ! ! so ya comment me ! i am gonna go cause i am getting a lil dizzy. ttyl |
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